Do drugs *really* make everything better?

As many of you probably know, I suffer from Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). In fact, I think I've probably mentioned it on here before. What you may not know is that I suffer from a much worse case than many of my other cysters. While many women can live a fairly normal life, and may not even know they have it until dealing with infertility, I cannot.

For the past 3 months or so I've been dealing with a particularly bad episode. My hormones are all out of wack and I am in constant pain. There's really not much they can do other than give me pain medication and put me back on HBC. The HBC can take up to 3 months to work, if it works at all. I may need to switch to a new brand after 3 months (it has been 2 with this one). So, I just stay drugged up 24/7. And if I miss a dose or take it too late the consequences are quite dire. Quite a bit of the time Josh has to bring it to me in bed as I'm in too much pain to get it myself.

Lately it has actually been getting worse. Even after taking one pill I am still in a large amount of pain. The other day I actually passed out for a few seconds (or minutes? I'm not sure I was passed out lol) from the pain. So I have to get even *more* drugged up.

What is the point of me writing all this? Well I am not myself when I am drugged up. I obviously can't drive, so I've been holed up in the house. I haven't been able to work, either. I haven't officially quit not have I been fired but at this point I'm not holding out hope that my job will still be there when I get better. We'll cross that bridge when we get to it. I have also become even more antisocial than normal. I don't want to talk to anybody or see anybody in person because I'm not myself and that embarrasses me. My sister's wedding is coming up (and associated parties) and I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with that. I'm supposed to be in the darn thing and she's going to have these pictures for the rest of her life. I don't want to ruin them.

Basically my point is if you see me acting like a fool and talking funny, it's not my fault. If you see me crying in pain, give me a hug. I could use one.

Teal is the color for PCOS (and Ovarian Cancer) support. The image above is from [here], where you can buy PCOS support ribbons, postcards, pillows, and other paraphernalia. This one is my favorite and I would love to have it if it's wasn't for that whole not working thing.

Oh the joys of being a woman! (TMI warning)

Since I started this blog after my womanly fiasco, here's a little back story. First off I have PCOS (poly-cystic ovarian syndrome) which is essentially a hormonal disorder effecting the way my eggs are released as well as a crap-ton of other things. I have been on hormonal birth control to help with this for several years now, but sometimes my body doesn't cope well with that. Once or twice a year I will have breakthrough bleeding lasting a month or more for no apparent reason, complete with excruciating cramps. Well, last month was one of those times.

I ended up going to see Dr. Edgeworth (my OB/GYN) and found out I had a giant clot stuck in my uterus. I don't know if this is what always causes this because it's the first time I've had a vaginal ultrasound done. Anyway she took me off my BC and put me on Provera to thin my lining and stop the bleeding. Unfortunately for me, Provera also induces a period when you stop taking it. So after it finally stopped a few days ago, it's about to start again. I can already feel the cramps. Oh well, hopefully this will expel the clot and I can move on with my life.

As soon as AF gets here I will get the Depo shot for the first time. This will hopefully stop AF altogether or at least thin my lining sufficiently enough to lessen the flow and cramping to a manageable level. Dr. Edgeworth said that 80% of women who use the shot stop having a period, but I'm not optimistic. So far I've been in the losing camp for most everything else. However both my sister and mother have had the shot and they are no longer visited by everyone's favorite aunt so that raises my hopes a little.

Will update after I get the shot to let everyone know how it's working.